four white walls
I crave these four white walls.
I crave the same breaths and beats
day after day so that maybe
One day I will understand the deeper meaning
Or maybe even, the Answer.
I feel trapped here- the most familiar feeling
Because when I leave, I am also trapped
By the weight of my dreams and my visions of the future.
I am tied down by responsibilities and also tied down by the possibilities
That make my head spin.
The sky spans forever and ever until it makes my heart ache
And again, I crave those four white walls that cement my feet in place.
“It is safe here and only here” they echo and I am not sure if I believe them
Or if I should.